2 Peter 3:18 — But grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and for ever. Amen.

 

…. Physical therapy every day … and the Holy Spirit haunting my heart and soul about RESTING & RELAXING!!
This is going against everything in my nature, DNA, and character!!! A subtle torture and agony!? ​To finally… And suddenly except a new lifestyle and attitude is humanly totally impossible!!!! No matter what I “know” in my head… My emotions and heart are still cranked up, intense and ready to do battle!!Hummmmm!?!  I know in my head God can do this… Nothing is impossible with Him… but this is a new chapter in my life which is definitely mysterious and unknown.

I have been “fighting” for life, progress and survival since I was five years old- when my dad began to push me HARD to be a serious boxer ! Pray that I can change this Way of life!!!  Thanks for caring and understanding… For years I have been sensing and being told… That I need to write… and with 40 years of journaling and diaries… I have a lot of work and editing to do if they are ever going to be useful to others when I’m gone! PRAY I can get over myself… And my constant “guilt” for not deserving anything – and never doing enough!

Sorry for dumping on you.. but this is some of the reality of my life. I have preached all over the world… In every imaginable circumstance… Love -mercy -grace – agape- unconditional love – etc. etc. But as they say “practice what you preach!”. I probably have some fear and doubt – that people will not support our ministry when I’m weak and broken, but only when I’m strong and victorious!? Hummmm?!?! FINALLY IN MY MESSINESS — I CLING CONFIDENTLY TO HIS MERCY!!   Hallelujah!!

“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not to your own understanding, but in ALL of your ways – acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path”  Proverbs 3:5-6

THANK YOU for your friendship and prayer!!
In Him-